Note: My frnd got angry at me for making Heechul look so useless. Hahaha...I'll have to try to make this chapter a little more "happier" for her. No idea how to do that. But I'll do my best.
once again. This is ALL FICTIONAL! Heechul + SJ members did not say or do any of this.
Ch.3
After the meeting, our managers told us that they canceled all our schedule for the day, to give us some time to think and "recover" as he called it from the shock. After all the managers left, none of the members moved and no one talked. Everyone was either looking at the ceiling or the table or just staring at the wall. But no one dared to look at each other. I think I was probably the first one to move.
I got up, but Leeteuk grabbed my arm and asked where I was going. I didn't say anything. I gently removed his hand and walked out the door. Even as I left the room, no one came after me.
I didn't know where I was headed to, but my mind took my body to the emergency fire exit and began to climb to the top.
Once I got to the last flight of steps, I opened the door to the rooftop. At that time, there were two staffs chatting to each other.
My body automatically walked towards the steel fence that surrounded the rooftop and began to climb over the fence.
The two staffs must have heard the clinking of the metal as I climbed up the fence, and quickly rushed over to where I was. They began to shout at me and tried desperately to pull me back down. They were stronger than I was and eventually pulled me away from the fence and from the danger that awaited on the other side.
All I remembered afterward was the staffs shouting at me and I was on the floor. One of the staffs left to find help. Later he came back with the remaining Super Junior members. By the time the members were at the rooftop, I had my face in the palms of my hands and I was shaking uncontrollably. I kept crying Hankyung's name.
~ (a week later)
"Hey, Heebum." I said, cuddling the tiny fur ball into my arms. "How about we go drinking?"
"meow~" Heebum replied, looking up at me with his green eyes.
"What do you mean you don't drink?" I said, frustrated. "If you're not going to drink with me, who will?"
"meow~ meow~" Heebum replied, trying to escape from my grasp.
"Hey! Where are you going?" I shouted as Heebum jumped out from my arm and headed for the door. "Are you going to leave me too?"
Tears started to pour out from my eyes again.
"FINE! Leave me...lea...ve....me, dont' come back!" I choked, "I don't need you and I dont' need Hankyung!"
That was a lie.
I knew better than anyone else that I needed Hankyung. I didn't only want him to be by my side. I HAD to have Hankyung with me.
But I continued to lie to myself. I lied to myself about how Hankyung is going to walk into my room and said it was all a joke and that he didn't really mean it when he said he'll leave Super Junior.
The biggest lie must had been thinking that everything would be back to the way it was before.
Hankyung would be by my side again, and we would be laughing, drinking, playing, singing and dancing together.
In the end, I ended up crying alone.
I wasn't the only one who was upset over "that" incident. Kyuhyun refused to talk to anyone after we got home after the meeting that day. Leeteuk and Eunhyuk tried their best to lighten the mood. But it didn't work. Ryeowook also did his best to cook for the members to cheer them up. No one commented on his cooking. Everyone just ate in silence.
The members of SJM were probably affected the most, without their leader, they had no idea what will happen to SJM. Especially with Zhoumi and Henry.
"That" incident was different, we couldn't just apologize like with Kangin's drink and drive. We couldn't forget all about what happened and say sorry to Hankyung. It wasn't that simple, it was far too complicated and involved too many people. What happened to Hankyung and what made him leave SM was far from simple.
As I watched Heebum walk out of my room, my conversation with Hankyung on the rooftop just a month ago began to come back to me.
~(one month ago)
Me and Hankyung were up on the rooftop with several cans of soju. I just recently came back from visiting my family out in the country and couldn't wait to tell Hankyung all about it. I began talking about how my mother over-reacted when she saw me coming home. Then I told him that I got into an argument with my dad again over some silly thing. I also told him about how I met up with some old friends of mines from highschool and how we had a cross-dressing contest to see who was the prettiest.
"Hahaha, so who was the prettiest then?" Hankyung asked, taking a sip from his soju.
"Do you even need to ask? Of course your loving wife!" I replied, playfully punching him.
"Hahaha, of course of course. No one's prettier than our Chullie." Hankyung laughed.
then there was a moment of silence
Suddenly, Hankyung began cry. I became startled
"Woah! Hankyung what's wrong? Did my prettiness make you cry?" I asked jokingly.
"Haha...it's...it's ..no...nnnoott that" Hankyung replied, as he wiped his tears away with the back of his hand. "I was just thinking of how much fun you had."
"Then shouldn't that make you happy?" I asked, worried.
"I...I...wa...was thinking of my family. Hhhooww I haven't seen them for half a year now." Hankyung replied, taking another sip from his soju. Staring at his can of soju, he continued, "I tried asking for a break to return to China to see my family. My manager told me that my schedule is too busy, and that there's not enough time for me to take a week off."
"What about when you were in China for Super Girl promotions? Did you get to see your family then?" I asked.
"No, there wasn't enough time, we kept going to different places." Hankyung grimly replied.
Wiping the last of his tears, Hankyung turned to me and smiled saying, "It's okay, I was just hoping for too much. Even though I've asked my manager a million times for a break to see my family, the answer has been the same."
I wrapped my arm around Hankyung's shoulder.
"Hey! You have ME! And my family. You're always welcomed at my family! Heck, my mom even asked why you didn't come to visit as well." I said, returning a smile to Hankyung.
"Haha, your mom really said that?" Hankyung asked, curiously.
"Yeah! You're part of my family now, and you can think of my mom and dad as your own mom and dad!" I replied, giving Hankyung the biggest smile I can muster.
"Hey, thanks. It means alot." Hankyung said.
~
This was probably one of the time I've gave the wrong reaction. Maybe I should had gone up to Hankyung's manager and told him straight in the face, Hankyung needs a break and he needs it now. Then arrange a plane ticket and a whole months break for him to spend time with his family.
Would that had changed Hankyung's mind?
Would that have kept Hankyung by my side for a while longer?
Maybe it didn't matter.
~
Ch.3 end
Ch.4 teaser
"Hyung, you have to eat." Eunhyuk said, placing a tray of food in front of me.
"No, it's okay. I'm really tired right now Hyukkie. I'm going back to my room" I replied.
"Hyung, don't be like this. You lost so much weight ever since that incident." Eunhyuk said, pushing the tray of food towards me.
"NO! I said I'm tired, so leave me alone!" I said angrily. Then I started to get up and headed for me room.
"Come on, hyung, get over it! You know Hankyung's not coming back! Didn't you see the news? Hankyung's suing SM. There's no way he'll be back." Eunhyuk cried, as he rushed up to me and tried to drag me back to the tray of food.
"Shut up! Just shut up. I don't want to know about what Hankyung's doing. All I want right now is to sleep." I said, trying to get Eunhyuk off me.
"Hyung! Why won't you listen?" Eunhyuk said, he was on the verge of tears. "I need you! No, Super Junior needs you!"
Eunhyuk's words hit me like a cold burst of wind in a winter morning.
It felt like I just woke up from a long dream.
He was right, I'm not alone.
Super Junior needs me the most right now. Now that Hankyung's gone.
Note: What do you think? okay? Did I make Heechul happier?
T^T
fufufu.. cute~
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