Moving~

I suddenly started reminiscing my childhood.
It could be considered as a typical childhood. Growing up with friends, studying hard, going to average-ranked high school. I, myself is a very ordinary person. Not the brightest but not the most dull knife in the drawer.

Like or unlike most people, I grew up in a small neighborhood in the outskirts of Richmond, B.C. As I went in high school, everyone referred to that neighborhood as the "Hamilton Area". Thus, I started calling it the Hamilton area (named because of the Hamilton elementary school situated in the neighborhood). I remembered very clearly in my mind the usual route I would take to go to school. My house was built in front of a mini park, so every morning I would cross the park and walk across across a crosswalk. As I continued my walk, a tiny bridge would allow access across an opened sewer to a small cluster of houses. As I made my way across the bridge and got into the middle of the small cluster of houses, my subconscious will automatically tell me to turn left and continue my way to school. After a 3 minute walk, I would be faced with another crosswalk. Just immediately in front of me would be what was considered as Richmond's newest elementary school (the building itself is newest of all the other elementary, during that time anyways). As I cross the crosswalk and made my way to the school grounds, to my left is a small playground where usually the kindergarten children will play before the start of class. As I made my way up the stairs that took me to the main foyer of the school, I can see the community center and the gym on my left, while on my right was the tiny library.
On each side of the library was two different halls that took separated the lower grades from the higher grades students.

In the surrounding area of the school was a small mini mall. There, a pizza parlor, hair salon, supermarket, two restaurants, and a bowling alley exists. I remembered back in grade 2, we had a class field trip to the bowling alley; the bowling alley wasn't anything significant and it wasn't even big, but we all had fun. The Chinese restaurant was a usual dining place for me and my family when we didn't have time to cook; the food wasn't bad either. If there was one place I loved the most as a child, it would be the pizza parlor there. Even now, I still think the pizza there is probably the best in all of Vancouver.

As a child, my life revolved around this tiny neighborhood and the ice-rank, movie theater and swimming pool that was 15 minute drive from this neighborhood.

As I got into high school, my high school offered school buses that would take me from the neighborhood to the catchment school near the city center. I was one of the lucky few who got to take a school bus to school everyday. Not many schools in Richmond offered school buses to their students. Although I complained a lot of how the buses were always late while standing in the rain or in the snow. Thinking back, I find it quite enjoyable, because I wasn't the only one waiting for the bus.

Growing up in this neighborhood was truly one of the best memory I have as a child. I was sad to leave it 3 years ago, when my parents decided to move closer to the city center.
Although you might or might no know how the feels. To me, it felt as if everything I knew was forgotten, and I had to start over again.
Although it wasn't painful, it wasn't exactly a happy moment either.

"one's fortune is another's misfortune" ~

Have you ever ate your own tears?
Is that even possible?
What's the taste of it?
My asnwer is "Yes, yes, and salty."

I got off school today at 7pm, I have been on campus since 9am this morning. I'm tired, exhausted and depressed. On the bus on my way back home, I couldn't stop myself from reviewing the torture the day gave me. For the whole day and the day before, I stressed myself out of the amount of money i needed to pay for tuition, books and "additional student fees (clinic fees). Student loans covered most of it but left $5000 out. What was I suppose to do? I ended up going to school 6 days a week. That only gave me one day for part-time work. I couldn't magically make money appear in front of me. Loaning was out of the option, since interest was way too much for me to pay afterward. There goes my dreams of going to Japan down the drain.

As I sat in that 30min long bus ride, I kept thinking of my money problem, and thought about how fortunate my friend was, able to go to Japan for a whole month and still have money to study aboard. Why I am so much more different than he is? Why is it that I have money problem and he doesn't? Pondering this by myself, I noticed I was keeping myself from crying. Life is horrible. I held back my tears until I got home. Before me was a wonderful dinner my mom cooked and my stomach was growling because I haven't ate anything today (eating on campus is too expensive). And before I knew it, I started crying. I couldn't hold back my tears anymore, it was too much. So i ate as tears dropped down on to my food. At the same time I chewed and tried to swallow my food, it became painful eating between my sniffles. My esophagus couldn't handle food coming down and air trying to reach the lungs at the same time.
It was probably the most painful dinner I ever had. Probably one of the worst too, because I could think of was quickly finish eating so my parents don't see me crying.
Yes I live with my parents. So why don't I asked them for money? Well, if they had the money, I wouldn't be stressing out right now?

It hurts a lot when you see something you have dreamed of, for a long time, not being about to obtain. It's right there in front of your eyes. You can see it.
But your hands are tied down, preventing you from touching it.
When you try to walk towards it.
Your legs are chained a boulder ten times your size. On the boulder had "money" craved on it.
What could I do in this situation?
Cry. That's all I could do. Just cry. Cry and think of how pitiful I am. How restricted I was. And do nothing as you see friends living lives different from yours and all you can do is just be jealous of them.

.............................money is a misfortune to me.
.............................money to my friend is a fortune.
what more can I say?

working title (still have no name for this yet) part 2a

*once again...still haven't thought of a title. blah...what the heck ..who cares?

To fall in love again and again,
could this have been done?
My heart beats to the sound of the rain,
On and on I run.

For the next few days, Rin worked from seven at night until three in the morning. She would then return to her tiny apartment and sleep until the sun was high above in the middle of the sky. Not once has she complained about the demanding attention her job commends. Never once, have she complained about the messed up sleep time she has. All she cares about is the pay that she's receiving. It felt great to not have to worry about money all the time, and her manager treated her quite well. However, Rin never really quite understand how the shop run. For example, there was a total of twelve girls working at StarShine. Each hostess will represent a certain horoscope; Rin happened to be Aries. Which ever horoscope they represent, it also became their nickname as well (nicknames were needed for security reasons, sometimes they get a few weird customers at the club). However, Rin's horoscope isn't Aries, which makes it a mystery how they assign who get's what horoscope. Although love relationship is not allowed in the store, a few of the hostess are dating the waiters and the bartender that worked there. But of course they dated in secret, no one knows who is dating and who is not.

As the clock struck five on the west wall of Rin's apartment, Rin started busying herself with putting on her jacket and tidying a bit before she left the house. As she locked her door and walked down the horrendous 6 flights of stairs before getting to the bottom of her apartment, she waved hello to the passing neighbors who have just got off work and are making their way to their apartments. Leisurely, Rin slowly made her way to StarShine, passing through the endless rows of branded boutiques that had clothes with price tags that showed more than five zeros. Walking for about thirty minutes, she turned down a familiar alley way to a hidden streets that only opens at night. Rin slipped through the door and into StarShine.
Just as she was about to open the door to the change room, a tall blond hair girl with athlete's thighs bumped into Rin, knocking her off her feet.

"Oh!! Aries, I'm so sorry, I didn't see you there!" the blond girl said, helping Rin on her feet.
"It's okay, no harm done" Rin said, smiling back. "Wow, Taurus you're earlier than usual."
"Hahaa, so you noticed? Yeah, I got off from my other job early today, so I came to StarShine a bit earlier than usual." Taurus replied. "You better change soon!"
"Yeah, I will, don't worry." Rin said, as she walked into the change room.

As she got in the change room, she went to her locker and opened it up to find a dress already prepared for her. The dress today was made entirely out of silk and was a strap-less long dress. Around the edges of the dress were decorated with crystals, while the dress itself was a midnight blue color. Just as she got her dress on, most of the other hostess were pouring into the change room and getting ready for the night. It was chaotic. The room was way too small to fit even 6 people it, never mind 8 people all at once. Everyone had to fight for hair pins and eyeliners. There was also a fight between two of the hostess to decide who should use the mirrors first.
After about 2 hours of the chaotic struggle and fighting, everyone was finally in their dress, their hair and make up all neatly styled and carefully put on. As usual, all 12 hostess stood in line as their manager examine each of them carefully, to make sure they are in their best of shape and was presentable to the clients. Akito, the manager, spend about 3 seconds more in front of Rin before moving on to the hostess beside her.

"Oh no!" Rin thought, "it must be because my hair is messy. I hope Akito isn't mad."
Rin stared into Akito's eyes, trying to use telepathy to understand what's going through his mind. Akito just smiled and moved on.
When he has finished examining all the hostess, he cleared his throat and began his "work speech" for the night.

"Ahem. As I have told you all yesterday, we have a really important client coming to our club tonight. That will be Mr. Song from the most successful trading company in Korea..." Akito said.
"Gasp! THE Mr.Song from Sungson company?" Gemini asked as she cut off Akito's speech.
Akito cleared his throat again and said "Ahem. Yes, THE Mr.Song. He and his colleagues have fully booked the club for tonight. So I asked of you all to put on your best smile and give your all to make Mr.Song and company to enjoy their time here. Do you all understand?"
"YES!" all 12 hostess said.
"Good. Now shall we begin?" Akito said, smiling to all 12 hostess.

Right at 8pm, Mr. Song and his colleagues came through the door and made their way to their seats. 2 of StarShine's best hostess made their way to where Mr.Song was seated and started introducing themselves. Rin was paired up with Capricorn (as usual) making it the "table of sheep" as what the employee's always called it when Rin paired up with Capricorn.

*I'm ending it here for now...hahaha...shall post part b in a few days (hopefully)